June 1st D-Day

I woke up today and realised something was different…Today was going to be the first day of the rest of my life. Time to make some changes…the smoking has got to go, the emotional carrot cake obsession needs to be replaced, my whinging and moaning about how crap my life is…needs to be pushed out the door. I am not a ‘Victim’ of my situation. No-one is we all have a ‘Choice’ as to how we are going to react and manage things…for me its time to get my priorities right and start replacing some bad habits with some good habits. I cant just lounge around waiting for the ‘motivation’ to hit me like lightening. I have to get up and start moving for myself… as I am going along, maybe then the so called ‘motivation’ will strike. but I will not be dependent on an illusion anymore…for that is what ‘motivation’ is… it is an illusion…when we are lucky it gives us a boost to last that day, or the next few days, or even a month but it doesn’t last! Instead most of the time it gives us all an ‘out’ to procrastinate, stagnate, sit on our couch and do ‘fuck all’ whilst we are waiting for this illusive force to come and strike us. But sometimes you need to take matters into your own hand and this is where I am today. Today is the beginning of the rest of my life and every day from now on will be the beginning of the rest of my life…Everyday that I am breathing I have an ‘opportunity’ to do something better, be better, conquer my fears, overcome my temptations and that alone is my motivation.