Flabuless Lets Her Hair Down!
July 17, 2007
I had a great day today! Here’s me letting my hair down…as embarrassing as it is…You may wince, but keep watching…if you can bear sitting through me make an utter fool of myself…I do get into some good stuff…after my momentary lapse into bootie shaking insanity.
p.s Don’t look too closely at the HUGE pimple on my face…Grrrrr!
Consequences
July 14, 2007
Well…I got on the scales today for the first time in about a MONTH…GRRRR (I have been avoiding them like the plague actually! ) I can tell you, I didn’t like what I saw…Serves me right for indulging in my 7 Deadly Sins.
Ok…the bottom line is that I have put ON 4.5 lbs…OMG! I am supposed to be going DOWN not UP!!!! Time to get serious again! I am not going to change my ticker above cause…well…that would just be TOO humiliating. It’s bad enough that I have to KNOW I have gone up then have to see it again and again everytime I visit my own site…No…I am just going to spend the next couple of weeks getting down again…Then maybe we shall see the ticker start moving in the RIGHT direction. (ie Downwards not upwards).
In many respects I feel like a big, fake, fraud, I mean my whole blog is about loosing weight and yet I have to admit I have put on weight. Here I am supposed to be inspiring and encouraging y’all…and yet it seems that I am the one that needs to be inspired…and encouraged…BIG TIME!
Well, who said that loosing weight would be easy??? Even with WLS you still have to do the hard yards to work with it and not against as I have been over these last few weeks…when all is said and done, I only have myself to blame.
So, you are probably wondering where I have been all week…I don’t USUALLY disappear on you like I did last week…Well, I have been absolutely flat out on a couple of projects of mine.
My mate ScaleWhore and I have been working together on the FlabTV project…We have some big plans for it, so are totally renovating the website (hehe and you know how much I like renovating websites…lol). It’s off-line, at present, but when we have finished, it is going to be AMAZING! We can both see a HUGE future for FLABTV and it’s really nice to have a partner in crime or so to speak.
- ScaleWhore…I just love her name!
- I feel like such a ‘whore’ to the scales too..It’s like the scales are my ‘dominant’ mistress whipping me into submission whenever I step out of line. The only problem is…’safe’ words don’t really apply…lol…DANG!
The other project I have been hard at work on is an online ClubHouse for Sassy WLS Sisters Webring, which I am a member of…I have nearly finished this one…but I will tell you more about it and give you the link…when I am through. I am currently just waiting on some software upgrades and design tweaks then we will be ready to go!
So both these projects have really taken over last week… Slowly I am getting more organised…well…as organised as you can be with two toddlers, and an obsession with the internet.
My 7 Deadly Sins
July 6, 2007
Excuse: I forget, can’t be bothered…lame excuses, I know when my health is at stake!
Excuse: I wake up after 9am, then I am so busy bathing, dressing and feeding the kids that feeding myself just seems like a luxury. Besides, I never FEEL hungry first thing in the morning anyhow…I usually get the ‘Hunger Pains’ at about 11 am. When I, generally, chow down on a couple of arrowroot biscuits, or something quick and easy which I can basically just throw into my mouth, no matter what it is!
Excuse: At night is the only time, kid-free, that I can work on my MANY absorbing projects and once I start something I just can’t stop. I basically live 2 full 9 hour days…the first 9 playing ‘mommy’ and the next 9 playing ‘entrepreneur/blogger’.
- Eat Me!
- “Just tie my arms and legs, baste and put me on a roasting dish, i tell you, I would be a juicy morsel for even the most discerning of taste buds.”
Excuse: Emotional, sabotaging myself, I don’t really know…what I do know is that even when i aren’t hungry I have this alarming propulsion for eating…yea, yea, like its going to make make me feel better…but the insane thing about it is for about 5 whole minutes after…I do actually… but it is very short-lived.
Excuse: I never actually pour myself a glass of soda…No, that would be ADMITTING, to myself, that I actually drink it! Having a bottle in the fridge and taking a ’swig’ occasionally is much more palatable then admitting that I have an addiction to soda.
Excuse: This is much, much easier than having to prepare, cook, and dish up meals myself. It takes commitment, skill and knowledge to first work out what are the ‘Healthy’ and ‘Balanced’ food choices and then it takes energy to actually follow through actually cook them…besides which, as a result of my 1st sinful indulgence, my energy levels for ANYTHING are barely existent let alone to cook. Also, you have to admit, other people’s food is always SO much yummier!
Excuse: Hmmm…lets see…what do you think? Its a vicious cycle!
Ok, Ok so ALL my excuses are lame, my first instinct would be to defend my actions saying I have been ‘down’ or ‘depressed’ - another handy excuse for just about anything, …but in actual fact, the more I HAVENT been doing the above the more ‘down’ and ‘depressed’ I may be feeling.
- The Real Issue
- The REAL issue lies with my choices… The very fact that my sins are that I HAVENT done the above, implies that I have the ability and capability to DO the above.
No, the REAL issue lies with my choices… The very fact that my sins are that I HAVENT done the above, implies that I have the ability and capability to DO the above.
I am now burdened with the arduous process of reprogramming my mind to know and, more importantly, believe that I am an EMPOWERED & SUCCESSFUL woman and it is in MY power to make those choices, daily, and to NOT allow myself the luxury of excuses or ‘convenient’ justifications!
Regardless of your exercise regime, or lack of it, your ability to make proper food and lifestyle choices, your mind plays a huge part in your success or failure.
Instead of I HAVEN’T…I need to change my ‘internal conversations’ to I CAN, I WILL, I AM …and then, eventually, I will be able to tell myself, I HAVE!
Website Re-Structuring
July 5, 2007
FlabTV Has Arrived!
July 5, 2007
Introducing
So all you Vloggers out there -budding or pro- You had better start recording and uploading cause
Well, I have gone a little crazy in the video below…I was talking last week about loving and accepting your body…flab and aLL…WELL! I am about to bare it all! G Rated of course! I titled it “BodyTalk” and after you watch it you’ll know what I mean! Enjoy!
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