Chubby Sex

Apparently, Chubby Sex is one of the highest searched keywords on google. Don’t ask me my source…lol…No, No don’t worry its not me. For me personally, naked or scantily dressed ‘horizontally challenged’ (ie FAT) women (or men, for that matter) do not really appeal.

I must admit, I look at them with more than a little disgust…yea, yea before you jump down my throat and tell me how hypocritical I am… YES I know I look like…that! (I am reminded of it on the odd occasion when I happen to catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror after bathing…which I try to avoid…like the plague) But I cannot for the life of me understand why men would like to look at images of a big fat momma looking ridiculously haughty showing off her bits to the world and think its SEXY, now just so that we are clear…I am talking about soft porn here.

I love the human body…I have mentioned that quite a few times before, you know the taut, chiselled, six pack version’s…but a FAT human body is sort of hard to get an eyeful of…Perhaps what makes me so abhorrent of such pictures…is that, they all remind me of someone (ie MOI)…and I HATE that particular reminder, which is why my eyes avoid the mirror when I am naked. But more importantly, maybe I am also a little threatened by big people that are sexy and know they are SEXY cause I perhaps have lost that same confidence in myself…but still…as a single mom, with 2 children is there really any need to ‘Feel Sexy’? I don’t have a man in my life nor am I likely too for some time. I can tell you, It’s been a LONG time since I put my SEXY clothes on, plastered myself with makeup and went out for a night on the town with the sole intention of giving some unsuspecting guy a ’smouldering look’…Yea you know the one girls!!!.

The closest I get to feeling sexy, now, is when I have one of those few and far between ‘DRY’ dreams, YOU KNOW the ones where you wake up and realise you were dry humping the pillow…oops did I say that. Perhaps it is my subconscious telling me that, on some level, I should get in-touch with my SEXY side again. How important is feeling ’sexy’ to you?